Grandfather Tree

Now having come to understand that we are all spiritual beings who have chosen to temporarily live a physical existence on this planet, certain musings are inevitable, and shared here.

Monday, June 23, 2008


It was a long trek. Flight from Fredericton, New Brunswick to Toronto went uneventfully, even the process of getting my luggage, going through customs, re-checking my baggage, then going through security again. Taking the long trip by bus to the gate where I was to fly to Cleveland. Then the problems arose. Flight to Cleveland cancelled. Trip back by bus to customs back into Canada, wait a long time for bags. Call 800 number to try to get a different flight, knowing that I will be charged 69 cents a minute because I am using a US cell phone. Thirty minutes, some hope, then the call is dropped. Finally get luggage, turn in customs card, pull luggage and briefcase a long way again, find special phones to talk to Air Canada, finally get new flight. Check bag, but have to carry it through customs again, turn in another customs card, then need to go through security again. I walk into the area and see a very long line. It is like the lines at Disney World, weaving around and around, passing people each time around. I am tired, weary.

I notice a guy with a T-shirt that says Namaste on it and something about when I am in that space and you are in that space, we are one. I think of nodding and giving him the Namaste gesture, but I do not. Then I remember to breathe. I remember to notice the higher self and check with it. There is no exhaustion, no weariness there. I realize that the higher self is excited. About what? All these people from different places on the planet. This is Toronto after all. There are many people here that I have never encountered in the flesh in this lifetime. I learn from the Higher self that many of them are folks I have known well in other lifetimes. There is a big party on the other side as the higher selves of all these people interact. It would give them the greatest joy to experience some interaction here on this plane.

The Namaste guy passes again and I bow with hands joined. He responds and comments about my T-shirt, which is about spiritual healing. He says something about the connection and walks on. There is a huge smile on my face. I tentatively check out folks as they pass, not wanting to intrude, knowing that most would have no awareness of their connection. A woman notices me and smiles. She asks what has struck me as funny. I respond that it is a bit difficult to explain, but the connection was established, and there is much joy on the other side.

The connection for me ebbs and flows. The body is still tired and weary, and must be attended to. The higher self knows this and does what it can, but on some level doesn’t really care. A little discomfort is certainly worth it for the amazing thing that has just happened. Plus, it is excellent practice for this little human to learn to breathe and to follow my intuition even when there are some minor obstacles

I picked up Paulo Coelho’s book “The Witch of Portobello” and discover it is all about intuition, which was the topic of my workshop in Fredericton. A super question I have been playing with is this: “How would my life be different if I always consulted with my intuition and followed it, always?” I haven’t finished the book yet but it appears that the main character Athena comes close to this. She does end up murdered but there is much more to it. [This is not really a spoiler because this fact is revealed on page two of the book.]

I am writing this at a point where I have just one more flight to get home and it too has been delayed. However I do think I will get home yet tonight. Due to the last delay, I had time for supper and I ordered a Portobello mushroom sandwich in Athena’s honor.

Any Paul Coelho fans out there? What do you think about my super question? [6429]

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Preparing for Trip Part Two

Dream: We are working on a problem: falling down through the atmosphere. I point out that there is the factor of increased wind resistance, for example a billowing skirt, or ultimately a parachute. Someone brings forth a very large blanket-like thing. It looks like it was crocheted. There are small holes. I am told that it would work for 700 people falling.

Wake and doze.

I examine the crocheted canopy. I look at it very closely and I see that there are countless stories woven into the fabric. Stories of people’s lives: struggles, joys, lessons learned and not learned, experiences, rich experiences.

Perhaps my story is in there. Perhaps I am in the process of weaving my story in.

There is this problem you see. Every night I travel through many realms. I attend schools. In some of them I am the teacher, in some the student, in many I am both teacher and student. As I get ready to wake up, it is as if I am ready to “jump out of a perfectly good airplane.” I need a chute, a canopy, to soften my fall so that I will remember something of who I really am. As each morning approaches, I try out a different parachute, a new idea on how to soften the fall. However, each morning I wake up into a dense complicated troubling world. The chute fails to open and I forget. The energy, the information dissipates. I am immediately caught up into the drama.

It is getting better though as I am remembering to breathe. I can breathe in the memories that do get through. I breathe in the crocheted canopy this morning. I am thankful for the many beautiful stories woven into that fabric. I breathe them all in this morning as I prepare for my trip north and east.

My destination is Fredericton, New Brunswick, Canada. The third North American Conference on Spirituality and Social Work. [6391]

Preparing for Trip Part One

Herodie and Blaster-Fye were playing in the garden when the call came in. Instantaneously they were at their posts ready to help. Their assignment was to report any changes in the main dude’s nightly ritual. He often sat with his wife in his lazy boy watching these strange British movies that she got at the library, mostly odd-acting private investigators, aristocratic landowners and bored women coming of age. Around 9:30 or ten he would announce he was going up stairs to bed. Once up there he would invariably check his email and often get involved in some correspondence or other, or get distracted by something on the Internet. Before he got upstairs, they were at their posts waiting in his room. Herodie liked to float near the ceiling and she occasionally got a glance at one of the bats living in the walls. Blaster-Fye stayed near his desk, as he was fascinated with their Internet systems.

When the human came in the room, Blaster-Fye could see Neocyd floating above his left shoulder and she reminded him that this night might be different as the human was indeed very tired. He just might decide to go right to bed.

Neocyd was a true creator and she had actually been a human once, but she had no intention of going through that experience again. It was a long time ago and she had integrated that aspect of herself during the time of Jeshua. The truth be told she had recently considered becoming embodied again, but she loved hanging around the human and she figured that she got all the experience she would ever want watching and learning from him. She especially had relished the changes in him during the last decade and loved to watch all the beings who hung around just at a distance hoping to learn from his experiences. Just then the human took a deep conscious breath and Neocyd could actually feel the breath going in and out. This strengthened their connection and she imagined herself taking a deep breath with him.

She was delighted by Blaster-Fye and Herodie’s enthusiasm. They were what humans used to call sprytes. They were mostly connected to the Earth realms and their consciousness was playful and a bit hyperactive. Their desire to serve was of course without question and their loyalty to the human was lovely to watch.

Just then Herodie seemed to disappear for a moment and then reappeared all excited. “He is going to sneeze,” she said and sure enough he did, loudly and enthusiastically. Neocyd always wondered where she went to learn this; she suspected she went to what the humans would call the near future, but how she knew to go there at that moment Neocyd had no idea. Whenever she asked, Herodie would just laugh and jump up and down with delight, as she could do something that Neocyd could not.

The human did check his email, but he was done in less than five minutes and got ready for bed. Neocyd was excited because she so enjoyed her encounters with the human once he fell asleep. It was so much easier to communicate with him then, and he was starting to get used to her being there and seemed to actually find some comfort in her presence, although she could not be sure that wasn’t wishful thinking.

The human was leaving the next morning on a trip across lots of human Earth space to what the humans call another country, Canada. Hundreds of angelic beings have of course been working on this trip for months. There were only a few people who would be attending whom the human had encountered in this lifetime, but a large percentage of the attendees are folks whom he had known in other lifetimes. Dozens he had known very well and had worked together for many lifetimes. There were at least seven of these individuals who had met with the human prior to his birth and had made elaborate plans for meetings in the event that such a potential were to take place.

When the human fell asleep, it was truly delicious. He grabbed Neocyd and they traveled together. They met up with dozens of entities all excited about his trip. They had long conversations with the higher aspects of a few people that were determined to meet and spend some time together in human form at the conference.

There were three entities, Necyd didn’t now their names, who watched and prepared for the human’s trip back into his human form. Sometimes it happened so quickly and so preparation was essential. Tonight was a bit different though because the human had been working on a project of remembering more of what took place through the night. He had been working with others on a plan to soften the blow of waking up and had planed to out it into practice tonight. He thought that the parachute metaphor was appropriate and so he developed this elaborately with many others. He wove together many of their stories as well as hundreds of his own past life aspects into a sort of energy field and thought he could download it into his human self just prior to him waking up. He always underestimated the difficulty of remembering. It seemed so easy when he was here. Neocyd knew she was influential in some ways, but he was a master, an angel in human form, and she always respected that.

When he did wake up, he was able to hold on to the tapestry image, and it seemed like he did in fact breathe some of the download into his consciousness. He really wanted to be able to actually remember details of his journey, but Neocyd didn’t understand why that was so important, as it seemed clear to her that he took it in deeply whether he remembered it or not. She wondered again, is it time to go through that again? Things are certainly different, better in many ways, but there is still lots of suffering. The level of consciousness was clearly much higher and the new energy was flowing in faster and faster. Watching the human as she has, she has felt some of it. Is she ready to step into her mastery, but to hide it from herself? Maybe, if the human perfects the waking transition process? Anyway, no hurry; she has her project now of serving the human. It is sufficient for now. [6391]

Sunday, June 01, 2008

Purple Irises

I sat on my front porch swing this morning and read the newspaper. Every so often I stood up to look at the beautiful purple irises just below the porch. I soaked in their beauty. Their beauty is amazing to me. It is a blessing to be on earth in this body and be able to experience this.

When I return to my head I am even more amazed. How is it that this flower is so pleasing to me? How did this happen? From an evolutionary point of view, it makes perfect sense that this flower would be attractive to the bee or butterfly that pollinates it. Otherwise it would not exist. But I am not that bee, nor am I that butterfly.

Is it pleasing to me by chance? I could believe that if there are only a very few flowers that are. Is it attractive to me because it increases the chance that I will plant it in my garden? That seems to be too much of a leap to me, although I do not pretend to understand well how "the survival of the fittest" process works. Is it pleasing to me because I share the "pleasing gene" with the bee or butterfly that pollinates it? Now there is an intriguing thought.

It appears that the bee is also pleasing to the iris. The iris does not repel the bee although it may attempt to repel other insects that could have more "sinister" intents, such as to eat it. Am I pleasing to the iris? Does the iris like the fact that I stand up and view it from time to time? Could it be that the iris likes me because I like it? Does my consciousness and the iris' consciousness merge in some way? [6253]